It’s been hell of a week for me. You’ve been gone for a week, not even leaving a note that you really are leaving. I feel sorry for myself ’cause I didn’t even know what I did (uh, I don’t care if my grammar’s wrong). I pity myself for being so sad and seeing you, ever so cheery like nothing ever happened. It felt like I was on a break-up, even though there was never an ‘us’. Hah! Silly me. You didn’t even loved me. I was the special girl who made you feel happy when you were down. I was special, but not loved. And I, I fell hard for you; not even thinking twice of what the consequences would be.
It has been a week, and it’s killing me. Sad thing is, I know this will take longer, and the pain’s actually getting stronger. I have to wake up everyday and say to myself “Hey, Red. He said he wouldn’t leave, but guess what? He left! Now get through the day without being so sad. Go.”
I pity myself for loving too much.
So I have been awake for 36 hours now and I still don’t feel sleep yet. Hah! So much for a fucked up body clock.
It’s 5:24AM in the morning and I’m blogging, instead of studying for my Advanced Math Prelim exam later. I promised myself that I’ll study by 1AM, but what the heck, I wouldn’t even understand anything so why do I even bother?
Anyway, I’m planning to buy a sketch pad a lots of sketching pencils later. I miss sketching a lot and I think I haven’t drawn anything since I went to college. Ever since I became a college student, all I did was sit in front of my laptop and type codes I never knew I’ll learn ’cause I was never interested with ’em. So for a change, I’ll try to go back to my old routines where seating in front of the laptop for hours would not be an option.
Also, we’re gonna watch Step Up later. I’m not that excited about it, but I’m just happy my friends and I are gonna bond again.
So I’m new here at WordPress and this kind confuses the hell out of me. I’ve been navigating the site for 9hours now and it took me 4hours to change my blog’s URL/domain name. Hah! What. Is. Stupid.
Anyway, I created my WordPress account just because I need to enhance my skills more in web developing (been applying for an online job for 2 days now) and I think I’m gonna have a hard time grasping this environment ’cause I’m much more comfortable with Tumblr’s settings and I can edit my own stylesheet for free! But I think I’ll be able to get the hang of this if I spend more time here (I haven’t slept yet, by the way).
So yeah, hafta study for my Prelims exam and create vexel designs for, uh, practice purposes.
And, I was planning this to be my ‘business’ blog but I think I’ll just turn this into my “english” personal blog. (yeah, I blog in Filipino). I think I should be up for a change.